The Children...

How can a child know or understand the words "stability", "safe", "secure", "loved", "protected" or a balancing and loving environment? How can they when they are surrounded by chaos? Parents casting them aside or away? Moms and dads working too hard, or addicted to busy, or just too "addicted" period. Stressed, unable to give of themselves to their children. Teaching their children how to be rude by their own example. Those cherished times, those "special moments" never to be?

Foster kids thrown into more chaos, the foster mother and father too busy selling, buying, or making drugs. Sending the kids out of the house while they selfishly drink and drug themselves to death. Where and how do these "so called grown up adults" manage to acquire these children that need a loving, nurturing home?...only to be thrown into "another" chaotic crazy messed up life of someone else's creation? All those years in my past trying to have a child, never for it to happen and yet I now feel as if I am surrounded by these children who seem drawn to me, knowing my heart is still open, my spirit free and that they can talk to me. It just kind of happened naturally through the years...maybe its because I can understand and relate to what they are going through in some ways and I don't deny them in their sadness and I'll dance with them too! I love it and so do they! Kids are so smart, much more then we give them credit for, they know whats going on. I sometimes wish that I could just hug and hold each and every single one of them, just for a moment and tell them "your loved, your special, you are a unique and beautiful person and everything is going to be "okay" so "Shine on"!...