Saturday, July 31, 2010

Book quiz interesting results...

You're Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone!

by J.K. Rowling

While you may not be amazing in your own right as yet, people who
meet you can sense that you have immense potential to do great things in the future.
You inspire in people a sense of wonder and even childlike glee that is rare among
people, convincing them to follow your every move and even do things they normally
wouldn't. There are those who feel you're trying to ruin their faith or corrupt
their children, but you know that these histrionics are overreactions to your slightly
darker side. For the most part, you are just insanely popular. Don't trust your

Take the Book Quiz II
at the Blue Pyramid.

Thanks Lydia for posting this Book Quiz at your blog...very interesting

Monday, July 26, 2010

Simon & Garfunkel - Old Friends...dedicated to my "Old friend" Vern who passed on today

I met Vern a few years ago....while I lived with my dear friends that were and "are" like a family to me, while I was waiting for waiting for housing on the housing list. Vern was their next door neighbor. We became close "buds"..I would go over to his house and we would sit and talk...he lived alone...had for many years...he had Parkinsons disease...he would take such good care of his house and front and back yard..worked so hard mowing the lawn gardening in the back yard...always accidently cutting up his fingers and hands while mowing or using tools and such...his hands would shake so much..I would bring over peroxide and clean up his hands and cut fingers and show him how to do it so if he is alone and is bleeding what to do. Vern and I would always have nice talks...or have pizza together...just him and I hanging out...he would share things with me about himself, we had "special talks"....and he would listen to the story of my life basically or as Vern used to say "your lives"...for he knew the many things I've gone through in life he said was more like "many lives"...ha yes, I knew what he meant. He was a good friend to me..and from time to time he would flirt with me too...just for fun...I let him get away with it. I always gave him lots of hugs through the years. He liked that!

We watched Vern go downhill pretty quickly...once they put him in a retirement home a few weeks ago, I remember what he had told me often, "if they take me from my home and put me in a retirement place I'm just going to let go...I don't want to live that way". I remembered those words he had said to me often in the last few years...and when they drove him off to the retirement facility in town I kissed him on the cheek and told him I would see him "soon". Last week I was told that Vern was refusing to eat and just lay in bed losing weight and getting weaker and weaker day after day. I knew I had to see him before it was too late. So my family friends son picked me up and drove me over there a few days ago, I knew I had to see Vern one last time and to say good-bye. He never opened his eyes, but I talked to him and told him who I was and told him I had brought a little "angel" a ceramic one just for him. I held his hand and touched his face lightly. I asked him to sqeeze my hand if he knew I was there and he then proceeded to cling to my hand very tightly. Then I also put the little angel in his hand, let him hold her...he held on tightly to that angel...and didn't want to let her go..or my hand..I knew this was the last time and that I would not see Vern again....I was saying good-bye....and I knew he knew I was there...I remember when I told him "here look I brought you an angel Vern" and put her in his hand...his mouth opened and seemed as if he was trying to say something...he was trying very hard...then he was such a sweet smile he had on his face..his eyes remained closed. I talked to him for a while...just kept saying "I'm here Vern" and and reminded him of the wonderful talks we had and certain things he had said to me. I held his hand tightly again and gave him a kiss on the cheek....he did not want to let go of my hand he held...that was the hardest part...I had to slowly pry his hand from mine.....and we to leave. They told us we had to go. I had been waiting for the call...I knew Vern was letting go....very quickly....just as he had told me so many times before that he would when it came down to this. I got the call this afternoon...Vern had passed on I was told. I cried. My family friends were so upset, Vern had been there next door neighbor for over 27 years... they had all been there for one another through the years. So their son told them that Vern had told me many many times, that once they put him in a "home care facility" that he was "going to let go"....I understand had such inner strength and such a stubborn Scorpio. You suffered so much in silence for so long. I miss you already Vern.

May the angels sweep you up in their tenders wings of "dear old friend".

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Stop the wars! Think about these words in this "Disarm" Smashing Pumpkins video

"The killer in me is the killer in you".....I've always found those words in this song by the Smashing Pumpkins quite profound yet simply stated....and a simple truth..

Innocence lost in all the fear and pain....and so the violence begins...the saddest part of all of these wars. It's time for change and "New beginnings". We can only move forward to keep going back into the past to try to make a "healing change" is not possible...because we just keep ending up going "backwards" over and over, until we are spiraling out of control. The wonderful and good memories you have from the past, let them remain within your spirit...but living in the days of "ole" NOW and to think that would be the answer is a toxic reality that is not "real"......nothing will ever improve or change if we always think the past is the answer....wouldn't you agree?

Love and Peace to All,


Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Hand Peace sign for love and peace for the world as requested by Ringo Starr for his Birthday today..

Love and Peace, people let's stop the wars! Don't just sit there do something, get a bumper sticker for your car, or give the peace sign with your hand whenever you brave now...I know that "we" can do this! Don't give up....never give up for Peace and Love in the world.

Love, Peace and many Blessings for the world,


Friday, July 02, 2010

4th of July...An older post I wrote in 2006 for 4th of July still rings true for me now....think about it..

Today I see nothing to celebrate. Today I am fasting in my contribution to peace in this world. I also fast in acknowledgement of feeling the pain of so much starvation , suffering and hunger in this world when I truely believe it doesn't have to be!

4th of July, Independence Day
and I see nothing to celebrate
Power, arrogance, lies and Pride
toss them aside...

Believe whatever you hear?
Believe it in your own disconnected "Fear"?.....
Fireworks setting off more sparks
of Denial
Boom, Bang
reminding me of gunfire, combat, bloodshed
bodies blown
Spirits unknown
Spirits unshown
too many we see
please set their spirits free!

Remove the mask
This war must not last
nor continue
Gun blast
lies from the past
only to show
bottom line
messed up
and warped minds
with excuses
and reasons
and lies
to deceive...

I've removed my mask
and opened my Eye's
as a tear forms..

The America I now see
false reality
Fear breeds violence
and threats
as we realize
more of our freedoms
are being taken away
hour by hour
day by day
as this country slowly fades
to a misty grey haze
of oppressed walls of protectionisims...
And we call this Freedom?.

Drawing by Rhiannon (Barbara)
Written by Rhiannon (Barbara) July 4th, 2006 on this our supposed day to celebrate our so called "Independence".
Seems more like a celebration of superpower mentality, with a lot of denial and fear tossed into this so called
"celebration" I do not celebrate 4th of July this year, instead I fast and I shed a tear..