Sunday, May 03, 2009
Facing the Monsters..........
I had made this collage a few years back in relation to my feelings about my mother and my family...during that time I finally got the courage to say what I felt and needed to say to "her". It was very freeing. As I look at my collage now I connect with it for different reasons, in relation to what I've gone through in the last 2 years or so. Losing everything in my life it seemed, facing my fears of "what will happen to me will I survive, make it through all this?"...so I found myself continually facing my "fears" and "the monsters"...it's getting better now but I have recently discovered how emotionally fragile I still am. So, I accept and embrace my feelings of how I feel and who I am "for now"...as each day goes by I find new experiences to help guide the way...and of course my guardian angels, always hanging out in my corner of the world...somehow I know and trust that they have been with me the whole time..I just lost faith...and it was still okay with them..I felt their prescience always...strange though that may sound I thank them for the unconditional protection watching over me when I often stumbled and lost my way..
A heartfelt thank you to many of my blog friends for the support frame and kindness they have given to me...it meant so much to me...though you are all so far from me in miles, you are close to me in my heart. You made a difference in my life...and so we all continue to reach out to one another with friendship and understanding...all because of a thing called "blogging" on a computer...isn't that something? I'm not a computer type geek person, yet I can see where it can make a difference in the world if used properly in connecting and reaching out to others in spiritual and friendship ways.
Thanks for not giving up on me...because in many ways for a long time now I did almost give up on myself...now I try and take each day as it comes...it's all any of us can do.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of you...your so special to me in my heart..
"Nobody speaks about the monsters"...lyrics written by Annie Lennox