Saturday, August 11, 2012

Sisters of The Moon Stevie Nicks

The lyrics in this video (below) sung by Stevie Nicks, are my message to my "Sister" .  "When the ones around you, who were the most cruel, and they say will you be my "sister", brother"?..."well you say "no, no no no no Baby Sister "No More"!  It's over, no more! However I must admit my failure in not stopping this when I knew I should have.  I wanted to give you a chance, time.  So..that was my failure and my major mistake.  My intuition I did not want to heed. Big big major mistake on my part.  I should have known better.

Two years of my life I sacrificed and dedicated to save yours...and now I know you played me for a used me, lied, cheated, stole from me, took advantage of my kindness and are cruel.  So I remove myself from your life.  I am unwilling to condone the way you lead your life, the way you acted in my presence.  

From this day forward, I am no longer a part of your life. I have tried and tried and tried and done all I could to educate you, to help you, to hope you would finally grow up and learn from your lessons, as we all try to do. You have not learned, you are just going backwards once again. 

Everything is "Always about you" and no one else.  Your incapable of loving anyone, you are self absorbed, demanding,  jealous (of what I asked you?) rude, mean, cut me down with your cruel words and remarks.  I will not be a doormat for you.  I will not allow you to use me.  Go...learn to live with yourself, get to know yourself, stop using people for your own advantage.  Grow up!

I must remove myself from your life, and have no connection with you, in order to save mine.  You played me for two years.  Two years of my life! You used me and you are one of the most selfish people I've known in my life, and I've known quite a few selfish people in my are the worse! Why? Because you are my "Sister"! That's why.  That's why it hurts so much. We are sisters only in blood though.  Though you live just down the hallway I must stay true to myself and leave you be.  I want nothing further to do with you and I do not want to be involved in any of your "bullsh**" anymore!

Thank you my dear friend "Paul" for being there for me with all this.  Who would have thought we could still "connect"? Also thank you to my dear blog friend, "Sistar Kylita" for not giving up  on me and acknowledging what I've been going through.  It means so much to me.  Also thank you to my blog friend "Goatman" for checking in on me here.  It meant more to me than you'll know.  I hope you are doing better and healing.

Now, I shall go and listen to my "inner voice", the mystical "intuitive" "Lady Rhiannon"...And so I shall begin once again, in slowly finding my path to Spirit...and the "Gypsy that I am"...

Blessings to all,



goatman said...

I am not sure I would burn any bridges; maybe just not cross them for awhile -- see what happens.
I have a younger brother who has lived in my parents' basement for 30 years, living off them for the most part. Being high most of the time. They died a couple of years ago and we had to sell the house because no way could he keep up with even the small bills. So he is at my door ,after trying to live with others for a few months, staying down in my garage and in his van. I found him a nice cabin nearby that cost, fully paid, $120 weekly. He brings in $700 for his back "disability" and gets food stamps. I even paid the first couple of weeks and figured he could afford that lodging till he got it together. So after 2 months he is asking for rent money in the middle of the month. Couldn't even make it two weeks on his own money (I guess whatever drug he is on is expensive these days?)
So now he is living with an old girlfriend and her druggie son and I haven't seen him for 2 months now.
I am here for him but he needs to be there responsibly for me. I am leaving the bridge open.

I am doing well these days, bearing the heat and working outside in 15 minute bursts if anything is to be done.
Best to ya, lyle

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