Dreamweaver: February 2014

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Thinking of my Dad a lot this week. It would have been his Birthday. Hard to believe it's been a year now since he died. Dad, hope your at peace, wherever your soul and spirit may be. Maybe your a twinkling star in the night sky. Maybe another life, another time? Or maybe your one of my guardian angels now? Because I have felt your presence many times in the last year. Wrapping a warm light of protection around your daughter? Who's living a life she doesn't want at all and feels so trapped. Who wants to feel that there is some way out of this hellhole I have found myself in for so long now. Dad, don't worry you taught me how to be a survivor, I won't give up. But I don't want to just survive, and stay alive Dad. I want to "Live" and to have a real "Life" that brings contentment, meaning and joy.

I wish I could talk to you Dad. Well, maybe I will, and you will hear me. Wherever you may be.

I will always love you forever, Dad. I know you were not a perfect Father or parent. But I also know that you were "always" the only one in our family, that truly understood and "Got me". I remember our long "talks" as a child and when I was growing up. I should have told you all of this, when you were still present, here on earth. I have such regrets that I did not get to tell you this. I hope that you know, that I will never forget you Dad and thank you for being the one person in our family that understood "me". I think I understood "you" more than anyone else in our family too. Maybe both of us being sensitive Pisces might have something to do with it? We had a connection. Not perfect by far. But while growing up I had this with you. I am so grateful that I did. Maybe if I had not, I wouldn't still be around? So thanks Dad.

Love,
your daughter
Barbara (Rhi)

Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Quiet Miracles...to share with you..........

I dedicate this video to my dear friend "SiStar Kylita" and her husband Jeff, as his soul and spirit slowly makes his way home, "Into the light". I love you Kyle. Jeff and you are in my thoughts as each day passes to the other.

Love,
Rhiannon

My other new blog.....very different from this one..

Check out my other blog of my Life experiences you won't find on this blog....it's a whole new ballpark and very different than this blog. It's the other side of my "reality" on a fairly weekly basis and the experiences I have as a single woman, taking care of a lot of things and also doing the jobs of others, not getting paid for it, along with also explaining to them all the mistakes they made, only in order to make things "right" for and to protect me. How do they train these people anyway ? And maybe they should stick them in a psychology class first and pass that, before the rest of the job training.